- I wish to disappear... into the wilderness, alone and silent!
- I loved her, so I let her free; she loved me, so she let me free...... At the end, it was good for both of us.
Monday, June 30, 2008
My musings over life
Over the years, my journey through life, people, materialism, spiritualism, theology and so on and so forth has been educative. A life's knowledge cannot be summarized anywhere, but the thoughts can be written down in a line or two. Below are such lines:
Friday, June 6, 2008
On Being Lonely
I live in a city of 1.2 million people, a cosmopolitan city! I live in house shared by 4 people! I work in an office staffed with 1000 workers! I commute to office in an auto stuffed with 10 people!I am well connected to my friends over the internet and mobile! Yet I am lonely.......
This blog is not about why I feel lonely. May be sometime later, I will explain the reasons. This blog is about what I feel about being lonely. In simple terms, I will describe the emotions that I go through when I am lonely. Also, I will share my experiences and the benefits and demerits on being lonely.These emotions are purely mine and bear no resemblance to anybody's thoughts!
This blog is not about why I feel lonely. May be sometime later, I will explain the reasons. This blog is about what I feel about being lonely. In simple terms, I will describe the emotions that I go through when I am lonely. Also, I will share my experiences and the benefits and demerits on being lonely.These emotions are purely mine and bear no resemblance to anybody's thoughts!
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Road Trip To Durban, SA
It was a fun filled weekend when 4 guys went to Durban from Joburg. I had been planning over the past few weeks.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Life is Simple - Conversation between a Guy and Lady
Well guys. Its been a long time since I wrote. Here I am with this piece of convsersation that I had with a friend of mine. She said that "Life is Simple" and I said that it is not simple. We had this on line chat and I am placing the chat excerpt here.
Lady : don't think of the place where u don't have to go
Lady : leave iit on life to take u where it wants to
Guy : u say very simpel
Guy : and witten also that life is simple.
Guy : Do u really think that life is simple?
Lady : Yes.
Lady : as a matter of fact, our imagination makes things big and complicated
Lady : They are simple and we release that only after all is done
Lady : oops...
Guy : but we live in asociety
Lady : a society that we make
Guy : but then we turn into savages.
Guy : if we dont.
Lady : yes. none of us are cave mans any more
Lady : what i mean is that we grew up with the values that society gave us and we grow up to realize that some of them are good and some can be changed not cozing harm to anyone
Lady : society is a folk of mankind to stay together so they are never tamed by someone mighter.
Lady : There are no rules to make a society
Guy : so where doe the values come in - man made again ? And ur own kith an kin?>
Guy : What do u say about the joy an sorrows that are caused when man breaks the rules?
Guy : and do u think u can change the way - or would like to change the society if it harms u?
Lady : All that still happens
Lady : and values are man made
Lady : Society does harm ppl
Lady : else all would be good
Lady : and there be just peace
Guy : how can u say that life is simple and thoughts are the only problems?
Guy : When u are alive, u carry ur thoughts. And that i spart of ur life.
Guy : Answer this
Guy : how can u say that life is simple and thoughts are the only problems?
Lady : Yes. Thoughts is one key that we have make decisions and desires. That definitely makes life. But life without those desirable thoughts is simple. Life's principle is balance and not extend to obsessions. Life has its own course and thoghts have its own but we as human have so many traits that makes us feel life is complicated feelings like ego, more wealth, desire for things we don't have
Lady : Life gives us all a chance when we ask her but then its our thoughts that make us accept it or not
Guy : Whatever u wrote came from your thoughts. But u cannot separate life from thoughts.
Lady : I never said that
Lady : All I said was that life is simple
Guy : then u have to say that "life without unnecessary thoughts is simple"
Lady : No.. Life is not just made of thoughts
Lady : Look at a child somewhere as young as 3 or younger
Lady : you think they know what thoughts or desires are
Lady : they live and have life
Lady : thoughts develope and so does their life changes
Guy : a life means in the entirity
Guy : from birth, young age, adoloscnce, youth, maturity, marriage, parenting, middle age, old age.
Guy : thought play around in diff roles throughhout all these stages.
Guy : and with stage u come accross people, learn values, impose on others, and finally regret them. Guy : Peple say u can never run from ur thoughts
Lady : What u say is true but again as you say life is made of thoughts but life is not eactly thoughts Lady : We become mature and with time our thoughts as well. That can make a path for us to attain what we think would be good for us. But that is not life. Life Is in completion with faith and destiny
Lady : Thoughts is for our desires. To make us what we think we are
Lady : Life is a complete jounry
Lady : It is a period.
Guy : So how can be life simple?
Lady : Life is simple as life never has rules
Lady : It is just innocent
Lady : Life even knows where it is going
Lady : don't think of the place where u don't have to go
Lady : leave iit on life to take u where it wants to
Guy : u say very simpel
Guy : and witten also that life is simple.
Guy : Do u really think that life is simple?
Lady : Yes.
Lady : as a matter of fact, our imagination makes things big and complicated
Lady : They are simple and we release that only after all is done
Lady : oops...
Guy : but we live in asociety
Lady : a society that we make
Guy : but then we turn into savages.
Guy : if we dont.
Lady : yes. none of us are cave mans any more
Lady : what i mean is that we grew up with the values that society gave us and we grow up to realize that some of them are good and some can be changed not cozing harm to anyone
Lady : society is a folk of mankind to stay together so they are never tamed by someone mighter.
Lady : There are no rules to make a society
Guy : so where doe the values come in - man made again ? And ur own kith an kin?>
Guy : What do u say about the joy an sorrows that are caused when man breaks the rules?
Guy : and do u think u can change the way - or would like to change the society if it harms u?
Lady : All that still happens
Lady : and values are man made
Lady : Society does harm ppl
Lady : else all would be good
Lady : and there be just peace
Guy : how can u say that life is simple and thoughts are the only problems?
Guy : When u are alive, u carry ur thoughts. And that i spart of ur life.
Guy : Answer this
Guy : how can u say that life is simple and thoughts are the only problems?
Lady : Yes. Thoughts is one key that we have make decisions and desires. That definitely makes life. But life without those desirable thoughts is simple. Life's principle is balance and not extend to obsessions. Life has its own course and thoghts have its own but we as human have so many traits that makes us feel life is complicated feelings like ego, more wealth, desire for things we don't have
Lady : Life gives us all a chance when we ask her but then its our thoughts that make us accept it or not
Guy : Whatever u wrote came from your thoughts. But u cannot separate life from thoughts.
Lady : I never said that
Lady : All I said was that life is simple
Guy : then u have to say that "life without unnecessary thoughts is simple"
Lady : No.. Life is not just made of thoughts
Lady : Look at a child somewhere as young as 3 or younger
Lady : you think they know what thoughts or desires are
Lady : they live and have life
Lady : thoughts develope and so does their life changes
Guy : a life means in the entirity
Guy : from birth, young age, adoloscnce, youth, maturity, marriage, parenting, middle age, old age.
Guy : thought play around in diff roles throughhout all these stages.
Guy : and with stage u come accross people, learn values, impose on others, and finally regret them. Guy : Peple say u can never run from ur thoughts
Lady : What u say is true but again as you say life is made of thoughts but life is not eactly thoughts Lady : We become mature and with time our thoughts as well. That can make a path for us to attain what we think would be good for us. But that is not life. Life Is in completion with faith and destiny
Lady : Thoughts is for our desires. To make us what we think we are
Lady : Life is a complete jounry
Lady : It is a period.
Guy : So how can be life simple?
Lady : Life is simple as life never has rules
Lady : It is just innocent
Lady : Life even knows where it is going
Friday, January 4, 2008
A Chaotic Day at Work
Hi Guys,
Happy New Year 2008!
Its been a while since I came back from Drakensburg. Days passed by with each Thursday reminding me of the Weekly Status report to be sent to all the big people at work. With the weeeks passing by swiftly and my project deadlines on Monday, I decided to blog down one chaotic day in office. It is not that I am feeling sleepy now ( well I have been in office since Friday morning, now 3:42 AM SA time), but because i was really overwhlemed bythe sheer amount of work that I had been doing since the past few weeks, I decided to jornal my day's activities.
Jan 3th 2008 - Thursday
07:30 hrs - Get up from bed. Prepare tea
07:40 hrs - Call from offshore - Explain the Test Cases
07:55 hrs - Call to PL at offshore (It has been a recurring task!)
08:10 hrs - Get dressed, hurry up, finish tea, lock the door and get going!
08:20 hrs - Hop into somebody's car and start for office.
08:55 hrs - Reached office - Relax - Have a cup of tea with team mates before work.
---- BREAK ------
09:10 hrs - Logon PC, relax, deep breath, inhale, exhale, WORK TO DO - Okay !!!!!!
09:25 hrs - Prepare and send the list of taks to offshore for each of the 11 member team.
09:50 hrs - Prepare and send the Weekly Status Report to PL for review.
10:30 hrs - Prepare and send the Daily Activities till Jan 14th to Managers for review.
11:10 hrs - Validate the Invoices for the UAT
11:40 hrs - Update upstream about the changes in the sytem
11:35 hrs - Got some more documents to validate for UAT
11:30 hrs - Con-Call with the offshore team explaining the tasks and activities(went for 30 min.)
11:45 hrs - Send the Latest Logo to development team
----- BREAK ------
Well actually I didnt take a break. I had my lunch at my desk chatting with my fellow mates. Messages kept coming in my mailbox. Either I had to forward them, reply or validate. There was no scope of ignoring any emails.
13:15 hrs - Remembered that I had to present an End-to-End system flow to a seniour Finance client. Hell No ! The other 3 guys were not interested. I was the chairperson. Fine . Need to take action!
13:20 hrs - Send the Cancel Meeting Request. Reschedule for tomorrow.
13:47 hrs - Done ! Ooph! Clients accepted. Saved for a day.
14:00 hrs - Reviewed and validated the Weekly Status Report
14:00 hrs - Somebody from offshore calls to know what he has to do. Have to spoon feed him!
14:20 hrs - Meets the IT Big Boss - Chief work of the day - Commitments, deliverables, timeliness, milestones, isnt this enough !!! Okay he congratulates me on my hard work. I get the message. I have to work harder!
14:25 hrs - Validation of invoice, spoonfeeding the one guy about testing the invoice; sending the requirements.
15:30 hrs - Send the updated Project Plan to Project Manager
16: 40 hrs - Consolidate the reviews and validations and send to offshore
17: 05 hrs - Forwarding emails to offshore! ( Well I know why their mailbox is alwyas full - if you have the same email sent again and again!)
18:00 hrs - Discussion with offshore about the invoice changes/defects.
- Do you think its time to go home - I dont think SO - It going to be a long night -
19:00 hrs- Call up Scooters Pizza; Order Chicken Gourmet and a Coke.
After a bunch of documentation updates, calling offshore, validation of invoices, I start sending emails to everybody on earth.
21:10 hrs - Sending the updates system specs
21:30 hrs - Sending the Impact Analysis documents
22:20 hrs - Sending the Test Cases to offshore
I guess these activities summarizes my chaotic day at office. I call up Rose Cab and sit at my desk for a while. My foreheard pains and my eyes blur. The security guard comes and informs me of the arrival of the cab. I reach home in the next 30 minutes.
Lights off. I jump onto my sofa, a nice cozy one. My eyes are sleepy and fingers numb. I say to myself - why dont you sleep !
Cool then, Good night!!!!
Happy New Year 2008!
Its been a while since I came back from Drakensburg. Days passed by with each Thursday reminding me of the Weekly Status report to be sent to all the big people at work. With the weeeks passing by swiftly and my project deadlines on Monday, I decided to blog down one chaotic day in office. It is not that I am feeling sleepy now ( well I have been in office since Friday morning, now 3:42 AM SA time), but because i was really overwhlemed bythe sheer amount of work that I had been doing since the past few weeks, I decided to jornal my day's activities.
Jan 3th 2008 - Thursday
07:30 hrs - Get up from bed. Prepare tea
07:40 hrs - Call from offshore - Explain the Test Cases
07:55 hrs - Call to PL at offshore (It has been a recurring task!)
08:10 hrs - Get dressed, hurry up, finish tea, lock the door and get going!
08:20 hrs - Hop into somebody's car and start for office.
08:55 hrs - Reached office - Relax - Have a cup of tea with team mates before work.
---- BREAK ------
09:10 hrs - Logon PC, relax, deep breath, inhale, exhale, WORK TO DO - Okay !!!!!!
09:25 hrs - Prepare and send the list of taks to offshore for each of the 11 member team.
09:50 hrs - Prepare and send the Weekly Status Report to PL for review.
10:30 hrs - Prepare and send the Daily Activities till Jan 14th to Managers for review.
11:10 hrs - Validate the Invoices for the UAT
11:40 hrs - Update upstream about the changes in the sytem
11:35 hrs - Got some more documents to validate for UAT
11:30 hrs - Con-Call with the offshore team explaining the tasks and activities(went for 30 min.)
11:45 hrs - Send the Latest Logo to development team
----- BREAK ------
Well actually I didnt take a break. I had my lunch at my desk chatting with my fellow mates. Messages kept coming in my mailbox. Either I had to forward them, reply or validate. There was no scope of ignoring any emails.
13:15 hrs - Remembered that I had to present an End-to-End system flow to a seniour Finance client. Hell No ! The other 3 guys were not interested. I was the chairperson. Fine . Need to take action!
13:20 hrs - Send the Cancel Meeting Request. Reschedule for tomorrow.
13:47 hrs - Done ! Ooph! Clients accepted. Saved for a day.
14:00 hrs - Reviewed and validated the Weekly Status Report
14:00 hrs - Somebody from offshore calls to know what he has to do. Have to spoon feed him!
14:20 hrs - Meets the IT Big Boss - Chief work of the day - Commitments, deliverables, timeliness, milestones, isnt this enough !!! Okay he congratulates me on my hard work. I get the message. I have to work harder!
14:25 hrs - Validation of invoice, spoonfeeding the one guy about testing the invoice; sending the requirements.
15:30 hrs - Send the updated Project Plan to Project Manager
16: 40 hrs - Consolidate the reviews and validations and send to offshore
17: 05 hrs - Forwarding emails to offshore! ( Well I know why their mailbox is alwyas full - if you have the same email sent again and again!)
18:00 hrs - Discussion with offshore about the invoice changes/defects.
- Do you think its time to go home - I dont think SO - It going to be a long night -
19:00 hrs- Call up Scooters Pizza; Order Chicken Gourmet and a Coke.
After a bunch of documentation updates, calling offshore, validation of invoices, I start sending emails to everybody on earth.
21:10 hrs - Sending the updates system specs
21:30 hrs - Sending the Impact Analysis documents
22:20 hrs - Sending the Test Cases to offshore
I guess these activities summarizes my chaotic day at office. I call up Rose Cab and sit at my desk for a while. My foreheard pains and my eyes blur. The security guard comes and informs me of the arrival of the cab. I reach home in the next 30 minutes.
Lights off. I jump onto my sofa, a nice cozy one. My eyes are sleepy and fingers numb. I say to myself - why dont you sleep !
Cool then, Good night!!!!
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